It’s not easy, it’s tough, it’s hard. Yes, that’s what it is: life is hard.

Wonder why I say this. I am not in the normal state of mind. I feel somewhat frustrated, some what tired and somehow dejected.  No matter what you do to make your thoughts positive and optimistic, there is always that will play the spoilsport in life.

I ma not the usual guy who loves to hate life.  I rather live to love everything around me.  But, I am not that normal guy. I ma feeling very different. 

There are many things going my way.  May be that’s why I am writing this post to make myself realize that. May be by the end of this post, I would be feeling better. 

Let me first tell why I am feeling what I am feeling.  Today being Sunday, I didn’t really get to relax the way I do.  Woke up in the morning and found that I had to do the washing of the utensils from the last night and cleaning of the kitchen.  I did.

After that I decided to go out for my planned run.  I had planned for a half K. But, I had to settle down for a smaller distance of  12 k.  I was happy to come back early and thought that I would relax.  But, I had the kids waiting for the breakfast.  So, I did prepare the breakfast.

By the time we finished our light breakfast, it was getting closer to noon.  I realised that we were running late on our days roster. Ideally, the breakfast should get over by 10 am.

Then, I drove out with the kids to their bookshop. They have been harping on the new text books for the new session starting this academic year. That was a drain as I felt like I would lose my cool. These bookshops and the school connive to loot the already stressed parents.  We tried to bring down the bills as much as possible.

And then I had to visit a local construction site. This was not on the list. But, it came up and I had to oblige.

And by the time, we reached back home, the clock was turning 4 PM.

With no proper breakfast and too much delayed lunch, I felt like dead. But, I still collected myself and went on prepare lunch.

If I look at all that happened today, I could see myself 2X busy compared to my regular days. Actually, wifey is on an urgent visit to her parents who are not keeping well. I can totally get why I am feeling this way. I had to make sure that I am playing multiple roles of mom, dad and still be myself.

And therefore, you do get overwhelmed by the life around you. I went to take rest after lunch but I am still feeling jittery. It’s getting closer to 9 while the mosquitoes take bites on me and I am penning this post.

The day is still not over. There is dinner to be cooked and the preparations to be done for the Monday blues.

There wasn’t much time to relax my body or the mind. I also long to go and visit my mom back in the village.   I just long to do that but I cannot.  And may be that’s why I am feeling this way.

Acceptance is the only way forward I realise. Taking this hectic Sunday in my stride, I look forward to a better day.

Let me see what I can do today for a better tomorrow! May be I should use this Sunday as a sample to design and work on re-structuring my future life.

The purpose of life is not be busy all the time and go dead one final day. You must find yourself. You must explore the world around and experience the beauty and wonder in it.

I think that’s the spirit of marathon : Never give up. You can’t let yourself be sucked by life. You have a goal, you have a dream. You have a purpose and of that purpose is being served during these hard times, you are going to get closer to your goals. 

Sometimes, you have to forget the rosy living you aspire to have and just keep moving like you do when you are too tired and body is aching and still you have a long way to reach the finish line.  KEEP MOVING. KEEP MOVING.